RishabNakarmi

Sometimes the reality chokes you. What's real and what's natural takes the life out of you. And that is when you realize that how wrong and of wrong being is that you are that the nature hates you. All my actions that I have done, are done by my intuition and best character. There were many character flaws, some small and some big. But was there a balance in me? I want to say yes but I know that I can not be forgiven on the basis that there was a balance. Now the past, the present and the future, all three choke me into endless pit of darkness. The feeling of darkness is the sluggish energy sucking feeling in the stomach. The brain is dull, it is sad, it feels no emotions but corrupt and of self destruction. There is absolutely no hint of joy or excitement. It just is dark and empty. And it feels like I'm on the middle of an infinite blank wall, colors and life of what are left being drained continuously. Yet, I am strong. I can withstand this. I can get back of this. I ...